This is my first PMDD week not on (double) Prozac for a long while.
To say I’m over emotional and reactive is such a small statement.
My brain is screaming at me to say things just to start shit. And then also shit is falling out of my face so fast that I can’t stop it, so I am sounding like Supercunt.
It sucks.
Plus those of you not personal friends, you should know I just spent a long weekend with my husband on a trip to Austin for his birthday.
I started getting super snippy a day before we left back for home (which cycle wise is about when I was planned to start the pmdd)
So now I have guilt.
He says I wasn’t bad.
But first day home and I have missed the kids like mad but I am just snapping like an ass to them.
Example: we got the kids souvenirs, my son got a really cool wind up engineering type thing, and he hasn’t stopped playing with it. He keeps wanting to show me what it does but I have been running around doing things in the house, like a crazy woman. He keeps just lurking around me to show me and interrupting me. I finally snapped at him, looked him dead in the eye and said “I DONT HAVE TIME FOR THIS RIGHT NOW”
Now, I get it, he has his issues which prevent him from picking up on cues that he needs to back off for a bit, especially after I nicely asked him to and pointed out how busy I was at the time and I would see it later, but there was no need for my explosion reaction.
So lots more guilt.
(I did come back when I was finally done and had him show me all about it and let him talk about it to me)
I’m also hiding all day on my reading couch because I can’t handle interaction anymore (after 5 full days of being on the go around a ton of people, and so I don’t chew my kid’s heads off).
So right now I like the idea of having my kids again and I missed them to death, but I can’t quite follow through.
27 Aug 2019
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This is my first PMDD week not on (double) Prozac for a long while.
To say I’m over emotional and reactive is such a small statement.
My brain is screaming at me to say things just to start shit. And then also shit is falling out of my face so fast that I can’t stop it, so I am sounding like Supercunt.
It sucks.
Plus those of you not personal friends, you should know I just spent a long weekend with my husband on a trip to Austin for his birthday.
I started getting super snippy a day before we left back for home (which cycle wise is about when I was planned to start the pmdd)
So now I have guilt.
He says I wasn’t bad.
But first day home and I have missed the kids like mad but I am just snapping like an ass to them.
Example: we got the kids souvenirs, my son got a really cool wind up engineering type thing, and he hasn’t stopped playing with it. He keeps wanting to show me what it does but I have been running around doing things in the house, like a crazy woman. He keeps just lurking around me to show me and interrupting me. I finally snapped at him, looked him dead in the eye and said “I DONT HAVE TIME FOR THIS RIGHT NOW”
Now, I get it, he has his issues which prevent him from picking up on cues that he needs to back off for a bit, especially after I nicely asked him to and pointed out how busy I was at the time and I would see it later, but there was no need for my explosion reaction.
So lots more guilt.
(I did come back when I was finally done and had him show me all about it and let him talk about it to me)
I’m also hiding all day on my reading couch because I can’t handle interaction anymore (after 5 full days of being on the go around a ton of people, and so I don’t chew my kid’s heads off).
So right now I like the idea of having my kids again and I missed them to death, but I can’t quite follow through.
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