I’ve decided that in order to tell my story, which I’ve been wanting to do before I ever came up with this blog idea, I need to break it down.
Every time I want to just put it all out there, I get so overwhelmed and just can’t find even a place to start because there is so much.
The other day I realized “duh, dumbass, treat it like everything else, eat the elephant one bite at a time”.
So I am going to do my story in small bits of episodes. In between my weekly(ish) posts of revelations I come across.
I still haven’t figured out how to start, but when I do, it will have a unique tag that I will post about so it can be read in a (somewhat) comprehensible format.
I think.
The awesome thing about ADHD and bipolar is that, none of this may happen.
But I have great intentions. 😄
I saw a person today. They were physically uncomfortable, but speaking like everything was okey.
Their body language was screaming the opposite of what they were trying to put out there.
It was interesting to watch the battle until they just got up and had to leave.
I always wonder if I come off that way.
I move constantly.
If it’s not my leg twitch when sitting down (seriously, it doesn’t stop, unless I am in REM), then it’s my swaying or pacing when I’m standing.
It’s unconsciously done, but I know I do it because I will catch the double take of people when I am in a conversation with them, or my good friends point it out (because I tend to forget).
I don’t take offense to it, I don’t really even care, if anything, I worry about it bothering other people.
I also tend to disappear when I just can’t people anymore (which doesn’t necessarily mean people as much as any kind of stimulation, be it sight/lights/sounds/overwhelming need to be with all my friends etc). I hate “ghosting” but sometimes I overdo it because I am such an extrovert and love my people that I extend myself to the last second and just can’t even be able to deal with goodbyes.
I had a point to all this. It’s gone.
So in conclusion, I will be doing my story in small bits eventually (if I remember) and I think I make people nervous.
18 Jun 2019
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A story
I haven’t posted in awhile.
I’ve been thinking.
And going through a lot.
I’ve decided that in order to tell my story, which I’ve been wanting to do before I ever came up with this blog idea, I need to break it down.
Every time I want to just put it all out there, I get so overwhelmed and just can’t find even a place to start because there is so much.
The other day I realized “duh, dumbass, treat it like everything else, eat the elephant one bite at a time”.
So I am going to do my story in small bits of episodes. In between my weekly(ish) posts of revelations I come across.
I still haven’t figured out how to start, but when I do, it will have a unique tag that I will post about so it can be read in a (somewhat) comprehensible format.
I think.
The awesome thing about ADHD and bipolar is that, none of this may happen.
But I have great intentions. 😄
I saw a person today. They were physically uncomfortable, but speaking like everything was okey.
Their body language was screaming the opposite of what they were trying to put out there.
It was interesting to watch the battle until they just got up and had to leave.
I always wonder if I come off that way.
I move constantly.
If it’s not my leg twitch when sitting down (seriously, it doesn’t stop, unless I am in REM), then it’s my swaying or pacing when I’m standing.
It’s unconsciously done, but I know I do it because I will catch the double take of people when I am in a conversation with them, or my good friends point it out (because I tend to forget).
I don’t take offense to it, I don’t really even care, if anything, I worry about it bothering other people.
I also tend to disappear when I just can’t people anymore (which doesn’t necessarily mean people as much as any kind of stimulation, be it sight/lights/sounds/overwhelming need to be with all my friends etc). I hate “ghosting” but sometimes I overdo it because I am such an extrovert and love my people that I extend myself to the last second and just can’t even be able to deal with goodbyes.
I had a point to all this. It’s gone.
So in conclusion, I will be doing my story in small bits eventually (if I remember) and I think I make people nervous.