Libido

So I lost the URL for this page because I get distracted.

So, that’s a thing I need to stress over next week.

I’ve been out of sorts, for what feels like weeks, when actually it’s only been since Friday.

(Well technically a few days before that because I was seriously slacking and not doing my daily lists and starting to do the fly by the seat of my pants thing that always sends me into calamity)

I was actually doing pretty good until I lost my Tibs.

Today I am deeming it my transition day.

Time to climb out of the bouncy room of my brain and put order back in.

Prep and plan for next week, and start new.

I do have other things going on, I’m not sure I have explained in much detail.

I changed medication almost 3 weeks ago, from one anti-psychotic to another. After the Initial three days it took to get used to it and my body to comply, it’s been really great. He also moved me from Xanax to valium because it had more of a muscle relaxer and my tightening of the muscles (with my combination of the old antipsychotics) is what was setting off the downward spiral that would turn into panic attacks every late evening.

I also am on an antidepressant called Prozac which has been working wonders for me for the past 6 to 9 months. However I did not know, actually I knew I just forgot about, the side effect of kills your libido.

This entire time I thought all of it was my brain being an asshole and I would never want sexual pleasure again. I feel validated when my psychiatrist reminded me that it was a major side effect.

So we are changing me to something else, but we had to wait a couple weeks instead of changing all my medication at once just to make sure everything is doing what it is supposed to be doing. So Tuesday, cross my fingers, I either stop antidepressants all together or change to a different antidepressant.

That should help me with my major guilt and slump/sluggish shit that has been in the very back of my brain.