I stopped the lithium about 2 weeks ago. I couldn’t take the dizzy and motion sickness anymore. AND I gained a TON of weight in the almost 3 weeks I was on it.
I was more goal oriented on it, but constantly feeling sick helped none.
I expected to bounce right into mania when I stopped, but it hasn’t happened. I have mostly been in mixed status ever since.
I have become more insular however. I barely ever leave the house without Peter.
I am able to go to aerial on my own (which is a 40-60 minute drive, one way), but as soon as I am out, I autopilot back home. I just get anxious without him around.
This is the opposite from anything I have ever been my entire life. I am a BIG proponent for alone time. I love doing things on my own. Jeeping, movies, restaurants, people watching, walking around city areas, photography, etc.
Now I just can’t bring myself to do it.
Also, I enjoy being around him and as independent as I am, I am equally codependent, if that makes sense. 😊
I really just want to sit home and read, as of the last couple weeks. And so I have.
However, this is always a tell tale sign of deep depression for me. Instead of sleeping all day, I hide in books. And not just normal reading, more like choosing to read instead of sleep or planned activities, spending time with other people, or going places. When I am going through as many books as I have been in a short period of time…. it’s a huge red flag.
19 Sep 2016
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September 19,2016
Mental update.
I stopped the lithium about 2 weeks ago. I couldn’t take the dizzy and motion sickness anymore. AND I gained a TON of weight in the almost 3 weeks I was on it.
I was more goal oriented on it, but constantly feeling sick helped none.
I expected to bounce right into mania when I stopped, but it hasn’t happened. I have mostly been in mixed status ever since.
I have become more insular however. I barely ever leave the house without Peter.
I am able to go to aerial on my own (which is a 40-60 minute drive, one way), but as soon as I am out, I autopilot back home. I just get anxious without him around.
This is the opposite from anything I have ever been my entire life. I am a BIG proponent for alone time. I love doing things on my own. Jeeping, movies, restaurants, people watching, walking around city areas, photography, etc.
Now I just can’t bring myself to do it.
Also, I enjoy being around him and as independent as I am, I am equally codependent, if that makes sense. 😊
I really just want to sit home and read, as of the last couple weeks. And so I have.
However, this is always a tell tale sign of deep depression for me. Instead of sleeping all day, I hide in books. And not just normal reading, more like choosing to read instead of sleep or planned activities, spending time with other people, or going places. When I am going through as many books as I have been in a short period of time…. it’s a huge red flag.
But hey, yay books 😄
#bipolar