When I make plans, I have no idea who is going to be around (which me, tired me, manic me, unable to function me, normal me, etc.) when it’s time to follow through on those plans. The worst is going to bed, knowing and planning to follow through on everything you HAVE to do. Will I be able to, or will I be stuck in bed. OR will I be a manic mess that just says fuck it all, lets go do all the things that aren’t planned today. I don’t know, and it bothers me a lot.
It never did before because whatever. I used to have people rely on me to do things because they assumed I didn’t work, that I had time (uh, no), and make plans for me, which infuriated me on many levels, but mostly because I am completely unable to live like that. I CAN NOT plan things out, I have no idea if I will be a person that is able to complete that task on that day or time and to ask me too stresses me out (and pisses me off) more than I can explain. I
20 Jun 2017
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June 20,2017
That’s the scariest thing of this disease.
When I make plans, I have no idea who is going to be around (which me, tired me, manic me, unable to function me, normal me, etc.) when it’s time to follow through on those plans. The worst is going to bed, knowing and planning to follow through on everything you HAVE to do. Will I be able to, or will I be stuck in bed. OR will I be a manic mess that just says fuck it all, lets go do all the things that aren’t planned today. I don’t know, and it bothers me a lot.
It never did before because whatever. I used to have people rely on me to do things because they assumed I didn’t work, that I had time (uh, no), and make plans for me, which infuriated me on many levels, but mostly because I am completely unable to live like that. I CAN NOT plan things out, I have no idea if I will be a person that is able to complete that task on that day or time and to ask me too stresses me out (and pisses me off) more than I can explain. I
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Which bipolar me is going to wake up today?