As someone who has bipolar, I try to stay ahead of things and tend to over analyze every thought, reaction, and action. My biggest fear is finding myself in full on mania and not realize it (like 2013-2016, and I didn’t even have a clue and almost lost my family).
One of the tactics is measuring my “mood” every morning and evening. The problem with this , for me, is I really suck at sticking one number on my mood, but if I make it more complicated, it’s overwhelming and I just stop recording it. I tend to figure out what my number is a day or more after the fact, after I’ve spent 30+ hours going over and over the day. But I feel that hindsight isn’t always the best because I also tend to focus all on the negative or positive in my cloudy memory and rate accordingly without adding all the things in.
So for right now, it’s daily numbers. Occasionally, I will add *antsy or *irr *anxious and a number between 1-10, if I am especially one of those things because if I have a high mania, which tends to actually be good days, it also triggers my anxiety or I get REALLY testy.
My current scale is 1-5 for depression (1 being the lowest depression) and 6-10 for mania (10 being the highest mania).
I am almost ALWAYS at a 6, because as I said before, I really am not certain, so that’s my baseline. I have been at 7 several times and occasionally a 5.
For the past four days, I’ve been at a 4. The most annoying thing about it, too, is it is about 90% situational.
Probably 10% is that I haven’t done one lick of exercise in over 3 weeks (besides a bike ride here and there).
18 Jan 2018
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January 18, 2018
As someone who has bipolar, I try to stay ahead of things and tend to over analyze every thought, reaction, and action. My biggest fear is finding myself in full on mania and not realize it (like 2013-2016, and I didn’t even have a clue and almost lost my family).
One of the tactics is measuring my “mood” every morning and evening. The problem with this , for me, is I really suck at sticking one number on my mood, but if I make it more complicated, it’s overwhelming and I just stop recording it. I tend to figure out what my number is a day or more after the fact, after I’ve spent 30+ hours going over and over the day. But I feel that hindsight isn’t always the best because I also tend to focus all on the negative or positive in my cloudy memory and rate accordingly without adding all the things in.
So for right now, it’s daily numbers. Occasionally, I will add *antsy or *irr *anxious and a number between 1-10, if I am especially one of those things because if I have a high mania, which tends to actually be good days, it also triggers my anxiety or I get REALLY testy.
My current scale is 1-5 for depression (1 being the lowest depression) and 6-10 for mania (10 being the highest mania).
I am almost ALWAYS at a 6, because as I said before, I really am not certain, so that’s my baseline. I have been at 7 several times and occasionally a 5.
For the past four days, I’ve been at a 4. The most annoying thing about it, too, is it is about 90% situational.
Probably 10% is that I haven’t done one lick of exercise in over 3 weeks (besides a bike ride here and there).
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