Because bipolar is so predictable and black and white (nope), when I say I’m in a funk, it doesn’t mean I’m sad. Just unmotivated and have zero interest in things. It’s more of a numb thing. Nothing matters. BUT I’m perfectly fine otherwise. I laugh and smile and joke and I am a stupid positive person anyhow so, yeah.
I am also currently slightly manic and have a constant influx of ideas and great things I want and must do…. just no motivation for follow through. I am antsy and very very um… I don’t know the word, ready to jump out of my skin. My anxiety is through the roof, and was causing serious physical discomfort last night. I was wishing for a xanax, and I hate xanax (I dislike any kind of tranquilizers like that. Sadly, I don’t have any more because the RX I was given for 15 pills back in 2004, lasted me 10 years, and they are now gone). So I took a Tylenol PM just to get to sleep (it knocks me out cold), but I paid the price by the morning hangover it gives me and keeps me sleepy for the following 12 hours.
3 Sep 2017
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September 3, 2017
Because bipolar is so predictable and black and white (nope), when I say I’m in a funk, it doesn’t mean I’m sad. Just unmotivated and have zero interest in things. It’s more of a numb thing. Nothing matters. BUT I’m perfectly fine otherwise. I laugh and smile and joke and I am a stupid positive person anyhow so, yeah.
I am also currently slightly manic and have a constant influx of ideas and great things I want and must do…. just no motivation for follow through. I am antsy and very very um… I don’t know the word, ready to jump out of my skin. My anxiety is through the roof, and was causing serious physical discomfort last night. I was wishing for a xanax, and I hate xanax (I dislike any kind of tranquilizers like that. Sadly, I don’t have any more because the RX I was given for 15 pills back in 2004, lasted me 10 years, and they are now gone). So I took a Tylenol PM just to get to sleep (it knocks me out cold), but I paid the price by the morning hangover it gives me and keeps me sleepy for the following 12 hours.
But also, I’m good 😄😊
#bipolar