EDIT: I just noticed I wrote a post just like this 2 months ago… hahaha and from my prospective now, that was cake compared to this month…. fuck.
PMDD is straight up kicking me in the ass this month.
I have been really snippy because I dropped my antipsychotic a month or so ago and doubled the Ritalin, so mania snippyness is strong, but this week before my period is so very nasty.
So I stopped the Prozac a few months ago because it killed all libido, but the week before my period I was told to take double dose to deal with the pmdd. It worked perfectly.
But now I take nothing. And the last month or two I can slowly feel it coming back, just not as suddenly as I expected it.
I try to explain it as its being snippy and irritated at every tiny thing, but the week before it’s like… deep deep down in my soul. Like a full on thing has taken control and I have zero say in my reactions or what comes out of my face or body. After the fact I am also left in horror by how I am acting because I don’t mean to feel so…. pissed off.
This month has felt like the week has lasted FOREVER.
Add on to the boob pain I get during the same time has kicked in double time. Every day I feel like it’s the last day and I hold on, but then I look at the calendar and nope, still a couple more days to go and I can’t imagine I could get any worse, but I do.
The over emotional bullshit, the feeling like the entire world is against me, and my just flat out fuck you attitude sucks.
My poor kids.
All week my daughter has been apologizing for nothing because everything she does I snap at, and I hate it.
I try to make her realize there is no reason to apologize for something that she hasn’t done and she thinks I’m in a bad mood because of her. Same with my son.
I can’t tell you how many “I’m sorry” notes I have gotten from this past week alone.
25 Oct 2019
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EDIT: I just noticed I wrote a post just like this 2 months ago… hahaha and from my prospective now, that was cake compared to this month…. fuck.
PMDD is straight up kicking me in the ass this month.
I have been really snippy because I dropped my antipsychotic a month or so ago and doubled the Ritalin, so mania snippyness is strong, but this week before my period is so very nasty.
So I stopped the Prozac a few months ago because it killed all libido, but the week before my period I was told to take double dose to deal with the pmdd. It worked perfectly.
But now I take nothing. And the last month or two I can slowly feel it coming back, just not as suddenly as I expected it.
I try to explain it as its being snippy and irritated at every tiny thing, but the week before it’s like… deep deep down in my soul. Like a full on thing has taken control and I have zero say in my reactions or what comes out of my face or body. After the fact I am also left in horror by how I am acting because I don’t mean to feel so…. pissed off.
This month has felt like the week has lasted FOREVER.
Add on to the boob pain I get during the same time has kicked in double time. Every day I feel like it’s the last day and I hold on, but then I look at the calendar and nope, still a couple more days to go and I can’t imagine I could get any worse, but I do.
The over emotional bullshit, the feeling like the entire world is against me, and my just flat out fuck you attitude sucks.
My poor kids.
All week my daughter has been apologizing for nothing because everything she does I snap at, and I hate it.
I try to make her realize there is no reason to apologize for something that she hasn’t done and she thinks I’m in a bad mood because of her. Same with my son.
I can’t tell you how many “I’m sorry” notes I have gotten from this past week alone.
This makes me hate myself more.