August 23, 2016

Seroquel is an asshole.

An ASS. HOLE.

I took less than half of a 50mg, it didn’t split right down the middle.

I have always had RLS (restless leg syndrome ), but not too often and mildly (mostly in my arms). It’s a shit condition because you can’t do much and it feels awful.

Seroquel kicked in and 10 minutes later my legs and arms were going absolutely nuts! It was the worst I have ever had it and I LITERALLY felt like I needed to slice my arms open to release the built up energy.

This is also due to the Valium like head cloud it gave me as well and made reality very off.

I also lost the ability to speak coherently and took every effort to bring up words to say anything.

We were watching a movie (7 years in Tibet) and I couldn’t comprehend what was on the screen, and it made me dead tired. I was afraid to go to sleep, thinking I would be up all night dealing with the RLS, but thankfully as soon as you touch my arms/legs in a massage way, the feeling goes away temporarily. Peter rubbed my arms till I fell asleep.

I woke up feeling drug hungover, and so dehydrated.

And now I am trying to get my brain back.

I just sat here for 5 minutes trying to remember which is left and which is right, without any clue whatsoever…..

#bipolar