Today was one of the most “normal” days I’ve had in a long time.
My therapist said my goal should be to find “my” normal, which is most likely not near anyone else’s normal.
I’ve been working on that, but I live in constant fear that I will revert back to the insane mania I was in for 3+ years. He keeps reminding me that I am medicated now, and it’s doing its job, so, unless I stop the medication, I do not need to be afraid of “slipping” back into that. (But yeah, fears.)
And yay adhd, none of that was my point. 😆
My point is, today I actually felt outside of what my normal is. Today I felt like an average normal person normal.😄
(The parentheses are what I would usually do)
I woke up at 8, drove mom to her furniture place. (Drive back home and get in bed and say fuck it to going to aerial because I was running late. OR stop at a breakfast or somewhere and got a chai tea latte then go back home for a nap.)
I drove the 30 minutes across the two cities to my aerial class, 10 minutes late, but nothing horrid happened.
I enjoyed class and hugged all my people I miss.
Texted Peter about meeting for lunch when I got back in town, but then decided I needed not spend money on eating out and go find myself premade food from Trader Joe’s to make at home. (I still would have met Peter for lunch, ate something horribly unhealthy until I was too full to move, never made it to the store, went home for nap.)
I brought the food home and made it and ate it and it was yummy!
Though I was tired and needing some nap time, I told the kids I would take them to the trampoline place, hopped in the shower, told Peter to see if cousins wanted to go, picked up cousins, went to place, had a great time, got some drawing in, ice cream, drop the kids off and went home. (None of that would have happened, especially the shower. I would have stayed in bed and played Catan for the next 4 hours and been grouchy and possibly napped.)
Peter had wanted to go running tonight, so I made myself dinner and putzed around until kids bedtime.(I would have gone with him running, so sit and wait and drink all the beers 😄 then whine that I was starving, went to some expensive restaurant while the kids complained or sat attached to electronic devices.)
As of an hour ago, I am just starting to get annoyed at things and I completely feel that’s it’s because of my PMDD, but the doc gave me stuff just for times like these. So I will be good in a few minutes.
Anyway, all of that was basically me saying “Hey! I adulted correctly today and I feel good about it”
2 Jul 2018
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July 2, 2018
Today was one of the most “normal” days I’ve had in a long time.
My therapist said my goal should be to find “my” normal, which is most likely not near anyone else’s normal.
I’ve been working on that, but I live in constant fear that I will revert back to the insane mania I was in for 3+ years. He keeps reminding me that I am medicated now, and it’s doing its job, so, unless I stop the medication, I do not need to be afraid of “slipping” back into that. (But yeah, fears.)
And yay adhd, none of that was my point. 😆
My point is, today I actually felt outside of what my normal is. Today I felt like an average normal person normal.😄
(The parentheses are what I would usually do)
I woke up at 8, drove mom to her furniture place. (Drive back home and get in bed and say fuck it to going to aerial because I was running late. OR stop at a breakfast or somewhere and got a chai tea latte then go back home for a nap.)
I drove the 30 minutes across the two cities to my aerial class, 10 minutes late, but nothing horrid happened.
I enjoyed class and hugged all my people I miss.
Texted Peter about meeting for lunch when I got back in town, but then decided I needed not spend money on eating out and go find myself premade food from Trader Joe’s to make at home. (I still would have met Peter for lunch, ate something horribly unhealthy until I was too full to move, never made it to the store, went home for nap.)
I brought the food home and made it and ate it and it was yummy!
Though I was tired and needing some nap time, I told the kids I would take them to the trampoline place, hopped in the shower, told Peter to see if cousins wanted to go, picked up cousins, went to place, had a great time, got some drawing in, ice cream, drop the kids off and went home. (None of that would have happened, especially the shower. I would have stayed in bed and played Catan for the next 4 hours and been grouchy and possibly napped.)
Peter had wanted to go running tonight, so I made myself dinner and putzed around until kids bedtime.(I would have gone with him running, so sit and wait and drink all the beers 😄 then whine that I was starving, went to some expensive restaurant while the kids complained or sat attached to electronic devices.)
As of an hour ago, I am just starting to get annoyed at things and I completely feel that’s it’s because of my PMDD, but the doc gave me stuff just for times like these. So I will be good in a few minutes.
Anyway, all of that was basically me saying “Hey! I adulted correctly today and I feel good about it”
Tomorrow, I hope to continue the trend 😉
#bipolar