31 May 2019
Happy disjointed thoughts
Today is a beautiful day. The rope that was wrapped around my brain, then hanging down into my hollow body, attached to an anvil, is lightening. The anvil is being filled with helium with every note that bounces into my skin (instead of bouncing off the bizarre atmosphere around it), and with every bit of […]
29 May 2019
A day
Having a day. Had a day yesterday. Feel guilty about having a day two days in a row (which basically means hiding and shirking responsibilities and things in general that I like to do), but after talking to Peter about it at lunch, it seems that it’s okey to have 2 “days”, and maybe I […]
23 May 2019
BBC Depression video
Interesting timing to see this video. I haven’t been “down” (or in my case, absent of feeling) in a very long time, but I have felt it building the past couple days. I think the Ritalin helped a lot with that, but I stopped taking it … last Monday (???) because I am not in […]
25 Apr 2019
Spot on definition of Dealing with ADHD
A close girlfriend posted this today, and I don’t even have the words because hers so perfectly fit how I am/feel. As does the link. So here are her words: “Sometimes it helps to see that other people feel the same way, because being different like this makes me feel like an alien a lot […]
2 Apr 2019
Separated
Peter and I posted this on each of our fb pages, on this day, 4 years ago: Peter and I have been working on things for quite a while, but it isn’t going to work out and we have separated. We are still friends and are working together to do what’s best for the kids […]
29 Mar 2019
Sick
Being sick makes me depressed. Not like “oh boohoo I’m depressed “, but like my brain dips super low and it’s hard to come back out, all while I’m anxious and clawing to get out, but just can’t. I’ve been sick since Tuesday morning (and felt a bit Monday night, but was ignoring it then). […]
23 Mar 2019
Coming out of the closet
This article showed up right when I was thinking about this (yay Facebook reading my mind, yet again…) Why I Decided to Come Out of the Bipolar Closet I “came out” to everyone about 3 – 4 years ago. I mean, I knew I was and most people knew I was from what I told […]
22 Mar 2019
Accessibility
So I think I need to apply for adhd assistance/accessibility at the school. I go over shit way too fast.I always have. Anything I get wrong Is usually not due to not knowing, I just processed it wrong or read it too fast. I.e. the midterm I just took in 8 minutes (when given 75 […]
17 Mar 2019
Drained
Seroquel is an asshole. And I knew this, but still had to take a half last night even knowing this information. #manic Now I spend the next 24 hours in a drug haze hangover 😩
16 Mar 2019
Straight
So I’m supposed to be straight forward with this and give things how they are. Which seems to be easy in hindsight and not actively engaged in chaos. Which is now. And for the past…. 24ish hours. I hit a god awful low yesterday, coming home from the beach, after spending a wonderful day with […]
15 Mar 2019
Anger and Guilt
This is a very very interesting article: How Inuit Parents Teach Kids To Control Their Anger. Many things about it, I do not agree with (the story telling and use of fear as devices, is the same as the fear you do when yelling and hitting. You are just moving their fear of you to […]
18 Jun 2019
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A story
I haven’t posted in awhile. I’ve been thinking. And going through a lot. I’ve decided that in order to tell my story, which I’ve been wanting to do before I ever came up with this blog idea, I need to break it down. Every time I want to just put it all out there, I […]