28 Feb 2019
Things and more thoughts
Things are adding up. And it worries me. I can’t remember anything, but things are connecting and it’s freaking me out. Last night a saying (that I’ve never heard before, but apparently is a well known saying) from a book I’m reading was in a show I’m watching. Tonight I’m reading the same book and […]
14 Feb 2019
Oops
So I have noticed that since I started the Adderall, I talk to myself a lot more than before, and now at a normal volume. I really don’t care and at times it amuses me after the fact. Today I was in a rush to get to class on time so I had a sense […]
6 Feb 2019
Self-Esteem
Just some random thinking. And I’m sorry if it is all over the place. It’s how I am. I had homework from my therapist last week. It involved me taking my self hate from a 10 to maybe an 8. Work on realizing that things like – Peter is only with me because it would […]
3 Feb 2019
Not being alone.
This is a post that I have constructed in my head so many times since I came up with the idea to have a mental health blog. Let me start by this amazing text I got yesterday from one of my biggest supporters. I know you have been having a hard time lately. And I […]
3 Feb 2019
Switching things up
I have yet to get a response from my psychiatrist about the antipsychotic issue, and if they are going to give me another option, or what. I have called several times and my pharmacist has called, but all we have gotten is they will talk to him and return our call. It’s been a week […]
30 Jan 2019
Craptastic Day
What I just posted on Facebook: I’m tired . I’m cranky. Everything is not working out. Meta is sick 😩😩😩 My doctor is sick and canceled my appointment. I hate being an invalid and my ankle huuuurrrttttssss I just want to sleep the rest of day but I have a test tomorrow to study for […]
28 Jan 2019
Adderall
Not much of a post as it is just listing what I am going through currently in my very first dose (half of 10mg in AM, other half in afternoon.) Major saturation of colors. Everything became bright and so much more colorful within 30 minutes of first pill. That was surprising. I had horrible sleep […]
26 Jan 2019
Something New
I started this page a few months ago, but I get stunted every time I go to post in it. If you notice, I have about 30 posts up to this point. I took everything I have tagged #bipolar in my facebook personal page and moved them over here, so there is a background, understanding, […]
25 Jan 2019
January 25,2019
Went to psychiatrist today. He is adding an antipsychotic and ADHD meds to my already numerous list of meds. The antipsychotic – I had a serious deep deep depression in December (i mentioned on here) that lasted about 2 weeks, caused some hallucinations, panic attack, and delusions and paranoia popped back up (was actually a […]
5 Mar 2019
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Unfiltered
Awake. 1 am with an alarm going off in 6 hours so I can cram more French in my brain before my test at 9am. I spent 2-3 hours studying yesterday and another 6 hours tonight. I went to my psychiatrist on Friday and he changed up my ADHD meds. The adderall was just too […]