3 Jul 2018
July 3, 2018
I post here a lot about my experiences with #bipolar, but it got me thinking, I may do a blog type thing. I really want to help get out what we all go through and how different it is for everyone and help anyone who doesn’t know what is going on with themselves or a […]
2 Jul 2018
July 2, 2018
Today was one of the most “normal” days I’ve had in a long time. My therapist said my goal should be to find “my” normal, which is most likely not near anyone else’s normal. I’ve been working on that, but I live in constant fear that I will revert back to the insane mania I […]
21 Jun 2018
June 21,2018
Yep. Except mine tends to be from dysphoric manic (mixed), which is quite unfun too. Prozac has helped a TON, btw, without the numbness that I’ve had from other rx’s in the past. Also learning what triggers mania for me. Caffeine (duh), music, and deep conversations are a few. Fun. #bipolar 20 unexpected signs of […]
8 Jun 2018
June 8, 2018
I’m terrified. When I was in high school, my bipolar swings were so drastic, that nothing really made any sense. My lows were so low that every day I woke up thinking, “well, if the car doesn’t start(the front door jams, the cat looks at me wrong, etc.), I guess that’s a sign I should […]
27 May 2018
May 28,2018
I am no longer silent about this. It is too important. I am sad that I ever was, that i was scared and ashamed, and that I didn’t know what was going on with me a long time ago. I am vocal with as much as I can so that maybe someone who is lost […]
18 Apr 2018
April 18, 2018
Bipolar musings. 3 weeks into a mood stabilizer (only, for now, appointment this Friday to figure out more things), and I haven’t had any side effects (that I know of), which is unlike any of the other mood stabilizers I’ve taken. It has leveled me out a lot, and I realized a week into it […]
14 Mar 2018
March 14, 2018
Good lord. Take out only the suicidal and OD part, and the rest is so spot on, it is scary, but I love that someone has put everything I have felt/feel into words. From a book I’m currently reading “An Unquiet Mind” written by a psych who has bipolar: “There is a particular kind of […]
2 Mar 2018
March 2, 2018
For me, it’s watching people I know/love and interact with daily, expect one person and reactions, then be disappointed or surprised when someone else/different reaction happens instead. It also is not trusting your own mind on what is true/reality, or what is a result of manic/depression. That’s probably the worst part about it all, especially […]
12 Feb 2018
February 12, 2018
I am STILL learning so much, and I add this to the notes: It is terrifying and devastating to not be able to trust your own brain and decisions, to not know if what you are going through and feel true completely with all you have, then find out later it was a result of […]
12 Feb 2018
February 12 2018
So very obviously going through a manic run, forced about 4 crappy light hours of sleep last night, (I sleep, on average when not manic, 8.5 hours a night) and feel miserable. Problem with mania is you don’t sleep, or you sleep very little, and then you are not tired (until you come down, or […]
11 Feb 2018
February 11,2018
The problem with both bipolar and ADHD is that I pick up a LOT of hobbies. Like, a lot. And I want to excel at all of them, but there is not even remotely enough time in a day/week for that to happen. And then add in the down time, which is takes up about […]
9 Jul 2018
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July 9, 2018
Just got back from doc to tweak my psych meds. He upped my mood stabilizers a tiny bit and left everything else the same. He also said we will try something for when I start school again to deal with my horrid adhd and focus. I can’t take the normal stimulants they give for it […]